seconds, minutes, hours and days pass
times that I’ll never be young again
When I’m lost in my thoughts, wasted time
Trying to find the fine line
Between psychotic overthinking
And thinking things over.
thinking, if i had done one thing,
jusy one thing differently,
then all these storms inside my head wouldn’t be….
Maybe i should have just gone outside
to catch some air
instead I’m playing catch up with my antecedents.
maybe I’m a chameleon
adapting to their environment
all the while trying to escape their hawk eye
thinking they’ve seen it all
I’m thinking, have they understood me at all?
I need to know it now or never
Because
I’ll never be young again.

Like I’m In a cave
trying to weather out them, the storm
now our rainbow cloaks and dagger adorned
and our guise of darkness long gone;
Spent my whole life running in circles
Trying to get away from myself
When in actual, factual reality
I’d have made something of that time
Because
I’ll never be young again.

“If you never bleed you’re never gonna grow”
and i wonder if it’s something they’d know
Guess I’m ready for rose bushes and their thorns
This time, without a chaperone
It took Rapunzel 18 years
to finally feel the grass
below her bare feet
as well as wisteria all around
And I’m ready for that too
Because
I’ll never be young again.

Inspired by: the 1 – Taylor Swift, Only Love – Katy Perry, the lakes – Taylor Swift, Cornelia Street – Taylor Swift