i could not remember
how i found myself in this ocean
but that matters not now.
i know i have to keep on going.

i struggle
i struggle to keep my head above water
its overwhelming
every moment
i feel
like i’m a breath away
from drowning

i struggle
struggle to keep my head
above water
it’s overwhelming
every time
the waves beat around me
pulling me under like the riptide

this ocean
it’s big…
further than my eyes could see
this water
it’s dark
darker than the night sky

dark and heavy;
the more i struggle against
the higher the waters get

the words ‘calm down’
don’t seem to help
in this sea called anxiety
forces me to struggle harder
i feel the water rising
a little more each time